Patrick's profilepw134PhotosBlogListsMore Tools Help
    March 17

    Dear diary...

    Hi all!

    I'm a mean drunk!!!

    Reading last post I get the feeling I shouldn't drink much...  :P

    meh!

    Anyway... I start this entry... >NOW!<

    Brunel

    That infamous sports scientist and bachelor of the arts...  :P ok - only kidding, but I must admit I'm getting a little bored of uni now...  the people are great, but the course always feels as thought del-boy himself conned us into it...  I really hope it improves next year.  I know most of you avid readers will be thinking "it's only the first year, it's bound to be boring - you've done it all before!"; well, yes, that does play into it, but it's the general organisation of the place.  Take the balsa-wood bridge project as an example:  "oh - do all the force calculations and buckling moments (including second moments of area)" ; "We've not covered that yet" ; "oh..."... >skip 3/4 weeks later (conveniently after the project hand-in date)<... "And in todays lecture we shall be covering Euler's strut buckling formula","to do this we shall require I, the second moment of area"; >cue charlie brown frustration moment<.

    A lot of the lecturers, whilst they are probably absolute geniouses (or is that genei?  dunno...), they lact in the 'lecturing' section...  Many times no-one can understand them (I really don't mean to sound offensive), and then just chatter in the bacground, ironically making it even harder to follow.  This brings me up to the next subject: making fun of the way people speak.
    This is one I am very familiar with, and I hate the arrogance of people who start to take the piss out of how other talk.  These people don't natively speak english - we should be encouraging them, not mocking them!!!  But I guess that's hard for many brit's to understand perhaps... seeing as the whole world apparently speaks perfect english (you can see that in the way i spellt the plural of "genius"...).

    oh well...

    Theatre time again!  woohoo!!!  At least there's something to take my mind away from things.  Show is in 2 weeks I believe - "Camino Real".

    Not found a house yet :(.  The one we viewed a while back now turned out to be a 4 bedroom (including living room and dining room), with a boxroom that a bed can't fit into... damn it!!!

    Chris (Phd student) didn't print me a t-shirt on monday :(.  Oh how disappointed I was.  Then the competition yells "hi patrick" as we depart "Bar Zest"...  I believe my t-shirt was promptly printed not long after that... :P

    I can't wait to get my bike down.  I need to escape.  I'm not good with people, I know it.  I'm very good at making it look as though I'm good with people though.  London is just too crowded - I want to escape to somewhere relatively uninhabited now and again, breath fresh air and the likes.  Give me a break from trying to please people, even londoners... many a time I have thought of just catching a plane to somewhere in 'yurp for a day or two - I do live just north of heathrow...  Anyway - I'm certain I'm not stressed - how can I be!?  I reckon I do less than I did during my a-levels!!!  I guess it's somewhat the opposite if anything.  Too much time...  I get to think and put things in perspective.

    Anyway...

    My dad's new job seems to have a plus side - his first contract, it seems, is in reading (or there-abouts).  Which means I get to see him (kinda makes a change - usually it's the other way round... he goes abroad and I don't see him...) :D.  I was hoping to meet up on tuesday/wednesday, but uni, with it's inability to give a decent depth of foresight (ie: less than 10mins notice) meant I ended up busy :(.  Oh well.  Hopefully I won't be so busy in the next few weeks.

    ResNet (and the great firewall of brunel) have been annoying me moreso than usual lately - just generally not working (took me a few mins to load this "add blog" page...).  It's the most frustrating thing at the minute... besides this exam i've not revised for that's on tomorrow :'(...

    Oooo!  Chris got a new PC!!! =D  finally!!!  and he built it himself!!! which probably impressed me more than anything else...  he also has a new band (or two...) "Starblind" and "the Borderline".  I look forward to being at his next gigs I must admit!  Just a few more weeks before easter hols!!!

    And today I went with Tom and his mate from back home to see Trivium.  These guys were amasing - I've never seen some of the stuff they pulled off on guitar!!!  Ok, the music may not be entirely to my taste, but the skill was immense!!!

    Oh - the V12 engine is out of the jag.  Kinda nearly got arc-eye when ben was welding the engine stand together - thought he'd finished, looked >ZAP< ow my eye... fortunately i'm fine.  Just a purple spot for a few minutes.  Let it be a lesson - make SURE he's not about to weld when you turn your head...

    And in the big grand high prison guard special (with round the clock viewing on E4 and E4+1...) Hannah is leaving on friday :(.  Can't believe the year has gone so fast!!!

    Anyway... best be off I guess...

    revision...

    Until the next time...

    Cheers!:P

    P

    CotD: Chocolate cake with strawberry and cream on the top from the refectory.                     mmmmmmmmmmmmmmm.....
    RotD: 1) "I am not a whiteboard eraser"
              2) "I didn't print you a t-shirt"; "Hi Patrick!!!"
              3) "AAAACK!!!  Jesus!!! there's a decapitated corpse in the dimmer room!!!                     No wait it's only Jack..."
    March 09

    F*ck the world

    Hi all!
     
    Well, after many weeks of anticipation, here is my latest blog (shock horror for all my >frequent< readers who have been wondering where i've been all this time...)
     
    Well, I decided I'd write a blog whilst drunk, mainly 'cos that's the only way i'm gonna be able to say how i feel without buttering it up too much.
     
    Did the title give it away?
     
    Well, if it didn't, disappear now.  I don't think you'd be able to comprehend the finer details of this blog.
     
    Quite simply, I hate the world.  Why is it that humans, by their very nature can fuck up something so well?  Look at it - war over oil?  death for no reason; pretty much everything to do with africa; hatred of others;
     
    Why?
     
    I don't know - I just know I hate it - it stands for nothing I live for.  It's a personal thing of mine I guess.  I just can't hate anyone or anything - it's a rule I have.  Yet, tonight, in the academy, I felt like just ending everyone.  Why should they deserve to live?  What have they done to deserve such a right?
     
    I very often feel as though I'm just serving other people, for no gain to myself.  I guess it's common human greed for me to want something in return, which would make me a hypocrite (try spelling that drunk).  There are probably under 10 people in this world that I genuinly trust as family/friend.  Apart from that I play games on everyone - to see what they think of me.  I dunno, I guess it's just subconcious, but I can tell what someone thinks of me.  I would give examples, but I reckon they'd be rather pissed (aren't I nice? :P) when I get it right.
     
    More often than not, I feel as though more people would care that I went out rather than how I feel.  I guess I'm getting paranoid :S.  Why do I always cover the real me with lies - "I'm fine" etc.?
     
    Ah sod it, even drunk I'm reluctant to say things.
     
    Anyway...
     
    What's happened since xmas?
     
    Not too much - lots of work (a good 9 assignments in 3 weeks), and I have passed one of my modules (ME1307) pretty much before the exams!!!:D
     
    The weather has been pretty cold, and only recently has it begun to rain...  probably just aswell, seeing as they predict droughts for down here.
     
    Still single (surprise surprise - guess I will be for quite a while yet... especially with the ratio of women to men as it is at uni) - meh.  Suppose I'm better off without.
     
    Listening to Muse and Radiohead a lot.  Meh... I always do :P
     
    hmmm... anything else?
     
    Oh - I went home for the weekend a few weeks ago - that was good! :)  Apart from the train back - standing from York to Kings Cross... :(  (maybe another example of me being too nice to the greater population of the world? :P)
     
    Anyway - I'm off.
     
    Cheers!:P
     
    P
     
    CotD: Today - Chocolate gateux - at home a few weeks ago - apple crumble! :)
    RotD: Too many!!!